It’s a very lonely process, and I’ve experienced it in a lonely way too, in terms of my own personal construction, the way my parents shaped me. And I think we have upbringings that are very similar, based on patriarchy and I think I talked about it in my synopsis : we expect a priesthood leader to leads his family down the right paths, the right pastures, he’s not going to lead them into doubt, you know? I’m not going to lead my family down crooked paths. When I was on vacation, I went to Church where I was. I was in Costa Rica, I’d go to Church. I was in Utah… it’s Sunday, we’re not going to do anything else, we go to Church.
There were brothers-in-law, sisters-in-law, they were kind of proud to bend the rule, a little. But I would say : no. Me, I’m going to Church on Sunday. That was my father’s upbringing, you see? And it was a point of pride. So as I was saying to you: in the beginning, when I left the Church, I think I was naive. In any case, it’s too complicated to judge the past, especially and unavoidably with today’s perspective, with everything we’ve got now, all the experience we’ve accumulated… it’s pointless to judge the past. But it’s true that I say to myself, I’d probably have done it differently. I’d have had more discussions with my wife beforehand, for example.