I left work in December, and I said it’s time for a career change. I need to go to school, and I need to go and study. And I don’t think I prayed about it, and I jumped in that pool deep as it was. This year, March, I knelt down, and I asked for forgiveness. It was the toughest thing to kneel down and face the Lord and say, “I never made you part of my plans. And now the decision I made is effecting everything around me.” After standing up after that prayer I had the strength to face my husband and go and tell him and say, “I made a mistake.” Acceptance he gave me. He said, “It’s not your fault only. This is teamwork, and we’re going to pull through it.” And I think that’s the way the Lord works. You know, He just wants you to come to Him. I was miserable January and February. I was in between, I didn’t want to study—the thing I wanted to do, I didn’t want to study anymore.
I wanted to search for a job. I was just at home, I was shouting at my kids, and they were just getting the worst of mommy.
My son used to go and cut their hair with their dad, and he’d come back and he said, “Do you know what your son just said?” And I said, “What?” and he said, “I don’t like when mommy shouts. Does mommy have to come with us when we go cut our hair? Because I don’t want to be with mommy at the moment.” That was the saddest thing to hear from your own child that they just don’t want to be around you at that point in time. And I think that’s what made me go and kneel down and ask for help and say, “I really need help in this. I can’t do it alone.” There’s been blessings ever since.