At some point, I felt that God has left me because every time I’d pray and no answers. I can remember there is this point that I was like, “I’m not going to Church anymore. I’m not going to pray anymore. I’m not going to read my scriptures anymore because there is no need.” Because every time I ask God of these, there’s nothing happening.
So at that time, I could not come to Church for about four consecutive Sundays. I would just rather stay at home doing nothing—felt that God has neglected me. But when I was at home, that is this question that came into my mind when I was reading a certain book. I cannot remember the heading of the book, but this book talked about blessings.
The book was saying that some blessings can come immediately. Some blessings can delay. Some blessings can even come after death. And I was like, “God wants to mean that my blessings will come after death or in the other life?”
And it continues saying that when you face these challenges, don’t feel like God has forgotten you. Maybe God has kept some more good blessings before you so that you can be a testimony to another person. And each and every delayed blessing that God has put ahead of you will be a great blessing that it will be talked all over. That thing gave me strength, and I came back to Church.